Day: February 15, 2006

William is a very good baby, he’s never been a screamer as such, keeping us awake til all hours (although when he does go off God help us all), but it’s the constant worrying that I find absolutely debilitating…:

1. Will he go to sleep?
2. If he sleeps will he not sleep tonight because he’s had too much sleep?
3. If he stays awake will he not sleep tonight because he’s overtired?
4. Once he’s asleep, how long will he sleep and will it be enough for me to do the washing/ironing/expressing/sterilising/log collecting/rubbish sorting/washing-up/cat’s breakfast/cleaning/cooking/dressing/showering/face/make-up/hair (not necessarily in that order)
5. If I wake him up will he scream?
6. If I don’t wake him up will he scream more later?
7. If I’ve done everything I can think of and he’s still screaming what do I do?
8. If Eddie isn’t home in 2 minutes should I go ahead and bath/feed him?
9. If I wait for Eddie will he get into a state and not sleep later?
10. If he’s not screaming, how long can it possibly last before he does scream?

Etc etc….

I’m reliably informed this is a state of mind that will now be with me, in various permutations, forever.

EXHAUSTING.

I love this picture – it’s William looking gleeful just before exploding on Eddie in the bath 🙂

Today I watched Will like a hawk and as soon as he looked sleepy, put him to bed at 8.30am and he slept for an hour. We also went out for a long walk with Nina and Lucy in the village – Yummy Mummies in convoy! So that was another 2 1/2 hours after we’d pootled along and then had cake and tea. Finally got home to find I couldn’t wake the little man up and started panicking that he wouldn’t sleep later. Fortunately though I just ended up with a much calmer baby and a quiet Valentines evening of oysters and champagne with Eddie.

Eddie actually put it very well; napping in the day is one thing, but 6.15pm is Will’s bedtime and will be for years to come. He knows his routine now and always sleeps from 7 – 10.30. I must stop worrying every night that he’s going to wake up in the middle and scream.